So I write this ode to blogging…and not even 24 hours later, suddenly I don’t feel like doing it.
Can I say I have a headache?
Even if I don’t?
I realize I could skip a day. It’s not like anyone is taking attendance. I could get a note from V excusing me–if he wasn’t sleeping. But I don’t want to excuse myself just because I had a stressful day and I’m in a crummy mood. Blogging is meant to be immediate and spontaneous. Even if it doesn’t come out particularly funny or inspirational or useful or clever or doesn’t even make sense. Which tonight it might not.
Basically I’m distracted.
Daniel is due home tomorrow for winter break. Anyone who knows me knows how I adore my kids and pull out all the stops for them. But right now I am feeling like a slacker mom.
Jane’s kids are coming in tomorrow with the grandchildren and she’s busy cooking. Last week I talked to Laurie the night before her kids were coming home from college and she was busy cooking their favorite meals.
Oy. I’m trying to calculate how many actual meals I’ve cooked in the 4 months Daniel has been gone. I”m not positive about the exact number but it’s probably in single digits. I could be using the oven as a file cabinet right now.
Not only have I not cooked, I haven’t even shopped for food yet. Even though I know that Daniel’s friends will descend on our refrigerator as soon as I get him home from San Francisco airport. But I don’t want to follow this line of thought any further.
Because cooking for Daniel tomorrow could be a moot point because of the other thing distracting me.
Last week I wrote about my worrying when Daniel was traveling home for winter break last year. I thought confessing my neurotic behavior was really healthy. Once my anxiety was out on the internet, it disappeared in real life.
This year I learned from last year’s mistakes. He’ll take the bus in the morning (Friday) from Madison to Chicago, and fly out of O’Hare. And this time, I didn’t worry one bit. Didn’t check the hourly forecast. Didn’t check the daily forecast. Didn’t think of calling the Highway Patrol. I didn’t even think about the weather at all until Daniel called like the responsible kid he is and said HE”S been checking the weather. He suggested I check for myself and here is what I read word for word:
MAJOR WINTER STORM WILL BEGIN TO AFFECT SOUTHERN WISCONSIN IN THE NEXT FEW HOURS…
A MAJOR WINTER STORM IS EXPECTED TO SIGNIFICANTLY IMPACT THE AREA BEGINNING TONIGHT AND LASTING THROUGH EARLY FRIDAY AFTERNOON.
TRAVEL CONDITIONS WILL DETERIORATE RAPIDLY LATER TONIGHT AND WILL BE DANGEROUS FRIDAY MORNING. (I did not capitalize this just to exaggerate; the weather people did. The bold face is theirs, too.)
I thought lightning doesn’t strike twice. Well, apparently snowstorms do.
If he gets stuck out there, tomorrow night I’ll have a headache for real.